HELD

If you were to ask me, as a Mommy - what my biggest fear would be... it wouldn't be snakes or spiders or heights or small spaces. Without a doubt, it would be losing a child. I did lose one, it was only 10 weeks old - and it was at my first ultra-sound when I knew... I had gone through 3 others to know when you look on that black & white screen there is usually a little flicker on it showing the baby's little heartbeat. There was none. I knew - before they even told me! I knew. I cried and there was a huge emptiness in my heart! There still is!  

 

One year later - there was Mia. Each pregnancy is a miracle. A gift from God! How incredibly blessed I am to be able to raise and train my children... not just in their daily activities... but also in their spiritual guidance. Ultimately leading them to Christ and daily praying that they will know HIM and allow HIS light to shine through them. 


  Just like I knew when looking at the ultrasound monitor... Our Father knows what our future holds. I pray for my childrens safety and for HIS guidance every day! I am thankful HE hears my prayers! He knows our hearts! He knows our future!


Philippians 4:6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
I have not stopped thinking about our family & friends who have lost loved ones all too suddenly!



5 years ago - our friend ROB died serving in Iraq http://www.robsoltes.com/



** Hit the Pause button on the PLAYLIST BELOW to stop music - grab some tissue - because you'll need it - BEFORE STARTING VIDEO
Remembering Rob Soltes from David Matthies on Vimeo.



Almost 1 year ago - on July 15th - our little friend - Joshua "JR" died of an Asthma Attack at the young age of 9. - http://jrlipat.blogspot.com/



... just this year
my maternal grandma "LOLA" Decena

... and just recently, my cousins 2 year old son - Anton drowned in that terrible ferry accident in the Philippines!


This is a beautiful song by Natalie Grant called, HELD. I pray that we will always remember that even in the tougest times - GODS love will carry us through!



Held lyrics - Song by Natalie Grant Two months is too little
They let him go
They had no sudden healing
To think that providence
Would take a child from his mother
While she prays, is appalling
Who told us we'd be rescued
What has changed and
Why should we be saved from nightmares
We're asking why this happens to us
Who have died to live, it's unfair
[Chorus]
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held
This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it and
Let the hatred numb our sorrows
The wise hand opens slowly
To lilies of the valley and tomorrow

[Chorus]
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held

[Bridge]
If hope is born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our savior
[Chorus]
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held... We'd be held
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was when everything fell
We'd be held... This is what it means to be held.....